This is a story from a restless mind
A wicked mind

No idea what to say
I am here anyway…

Baptized with the perfect name
The dawning won by heart
Alone, without himself.

Time it took the most of me
And left me with no key
To unlock the chest of remedy
Mother, the pain ain’t hurting me…

Sometimes I really hate people close to me
They want to see my reaction
That I don’t want to give

Sometimes I really want to be just dead
Without any kind of
Torturing stress.

I can feel no approval from ones that I love
This is permanent and I can’t stand this hell I feel
…I'm feared and loathed besides.

Jaded eyes can see nothing left for me
All pride is gone and here’s nothing to love
And everything is so damn lost again

Waves of sadness wash away my sanity
And tonight, I will leave these nights behind.

All illusions are just fraction
All illusions seems so real

"If you read this lines, remember not the hand that wrote it
Remember only the verse, songmaker’s cry, the one without tears
For I’ve given this its strength and it has become my only strength.
Comforting home, mother’s lap, chance for immortality
Where being wanted became a thrill I never knew
The sweet piano writing down my life"
"Teach me passion for I fear it’s gone
Show me love, hold the lorn
So much more I wanted to give to the ones who love me
I’m sorry
Time will tell (this bitter farewell)
I live no more to shame nor me nor you
And you... I wish I didn’t feel for you anymore..."

Deep in this sadness, now everything’s so damn far away
And love is hurting, I won’t seal my fate... I lose anyway

You can’t change the way I am,
I fall every day.
In some twisted way… I love my misery.

My heart, my soul everything's gone

Still sweet ignorance is the key
To a poet's paradise
Challenge the Riddler and you will see...

Taking a step to the world unbound
Spinning my fantasies all around
Freed from the gravital leash
I swear the heaven's in my reach


These words doesn't seem real to me.

Without any words I left that world
I don't feel any regrets over the last decisions that I made
The pain I left behind me made a scar in my soul
That will last forever to remind me.